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Friday, August 31, 2007
@ 10:40 PM
She fears she might get a nervous breakdown. It was her second try and she did very badly, even worse than the first time round. She feels disheartened, and don't know what has overcome her during the test. She seems to have forgotten everything, when just the day before, she was doing great. She has great hopes and expectations for passing the test, but it was just not her time. Not her time to get her licence yet.. She even fleetingly contemplates giving up on the dream. But something always holds her back. She has spent time and effort, not to mention money, into the whole thing for the past one year. She does not want to give up halfway, especially when she is so near the ending point. So near she can see the finishing point from her distance. She has no intention of giving up. She just feels tired. She wonders why her day will come. Wonder when the day will arrive when she can walk out of that place happily and not with a glum face. She needs more energy.. and luck..
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Sunday, August 19, 2007
@ 10:19 PM
She blushed. This was the first time in her life she had been praised. Not for good grades or for being a good girl. She blushed because she was praised for her beauty. For the first time in her life, someone said that of her. She does not know how to absorb all this. The feeling is good, even for just a fleeting second. She knows she is beautiful, but she has never openly brag about that. Who does? Whatever it is, it is a wonderful feeling to be praised for one's beauty, and she appreciates it. She even learns that someone else has said that of her. Opps, it's all getting into her head..
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Tuesday, August 07, 2007
@ 11:51 PM
School has restarted and what are my feelings? I don't even know how to begin to describe. Lessons so far have been quite serious. Maybe because I'm already a Year 3? Anyway, I don't feel integrated into my semester, yet. STARS is a major curse, and the reason why I don't feel like I belong, as yet. It's the first time ever I have such difficulty in getting what I want. I'm even beginning to think I didn't do a good job planning. Then again, how to plan a good timetable when virtually everything clashes and you have committments elsewhere? It's just sheer torture.. Sigh, I guess I should not complain so much. I already have 5 modules, or courses (as they call it) registered. I'm just pissed cos I cant find a 6th module to take. And I think I seriously need a 6th one if I wanna devote more time to my FYP next year. Whatever.. Shall not crack my brain over all these..Now that school has started, I'm thinking of quitting my part-time job. I need to consider it seriously if I am ever going to cope with KC's class. The readings are a lot! Plus, we need to write 2 responses each week. It's a lot, even if it's just 100 words each. But what my sis said does make sense. It's not easy to find a job where you click well with your colleagues. A lot of people are just pretentious when it comes to working. Then again, to stay on to my job just because I get along well with my colleagues? I need advice. Gaining experience, and not just a string of short-term jobs is important for future job references, as my previous manager told me, but I don't want to risk throwing my grades to the wind. I'm in serious need of a good GPA. Can't afford to slack my way through..anything.. Guess it's because it's the first time I'm holding a part-time job on top of my studies that I'm feeling so confused and lost. ADVICE!!! Ciao! Shall be back with more hopeful posts..after I sorted through my thoughts and know what I want.
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Friday, August 03, 2007
@ 1:02 PM
School holidays coming to an end, real soon.. I have been busy working and earning money that I don't even know how i spent my days.. Wow.. Just one thing to say, time spares no one.. Also, thanks to Karen for updating me on school stuff. I would not have known we are supposed to watch "The Simpsons Movie" for KC's class if she had not told me. Thanks again! Just checked the STARS system for my subjects registered and I got Basic Media Writing (COM204)! Yippie~! And that means I only have 16 AUs registered. I need another 3 or 4 AUs. Thinking of taking Genes R Us or Literature and Madness since there are still vacancies available even though that means my 3-day week is dashed. Shall see how things go next week when school re-opens for yet another semester.. Year 3.. Scary..
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